Happy Hump Day!

So the last week or so has been a bit insane for me. Last week was spring break in Pasco county and for lifeguards that means pure insanity on the pool deck for the entire week. Like I said in a previous post, thank goodness my recovery week was last week because I needed it after the crazy days that I had. So glad that's over.

This week has been really good and I feel like I'm going to be well and ready for my first triathlon this year. I had a slight change of plans regarding my first race. Due to insufficient funds, I need to keep all of my races close to home and cheap so that mean no Madeira Beach for me this year. I will instead do the race at Honeymoon Island in Dunedin. I'm excited and as soon as I get paid this week I will be signing up for that and the 5K that I am going to run on the 24th. It's been a while since I've done a 5K race and need to get a feel for where I am at time wise. All good things coming up for my races and I'm very excited.

Although my work outs have been great this week, personal issues have been messing with my sleep and my mood. I told myself a long time ago that I would never let my ex back into my life. After not speaking to him for 7 or 8 months I had finally healed from the pain he had caused me. Of course, being a woman, we always hope that when a man says he has made changes he is sincere about it. Excuse me one moment....HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...ok, got that out of my system. That is a joke, don't ever believe a man when he tells you this. Unfortunately for me, I believed him and it got me right back to square one. He is no longer in my life (again) and I am having to go through the emotions that I did this time last year. The one thing I have realized is that this is a horrible cycle that I have gotten myself into and now need to get myself out of. I'm not going to lie, this is so hard for me, especially given the history the boy and I have. We have been through a lot together, but that doesn't mean I have to sacrifice my happiness because of some fantasy of us being meant for each other we had. I cannot continue to put myself in this position and get hurt and get stuck in this cycle. I need to move on and it's hard and it hurts sometimes and it even keeps me awake at night thinking about him. I just cannot accept or tolerate him taking me for granted and not treating me the way a man who says he loves you should. The man that loves me will walk over hot coals to be with me, I don't think that the good ol' ex would do that.

In the words of Jo Dee Messina...my give a damns busted!

Low energy week...

Ughhhh what the heck is my deal this week? My energy is just so low. I think part of it was the fact that I wasn't drinking enough water. Solved that problem, spending 5 hours every day this week in the sun = a gallon of water a day (literally I carry a gallon of water with me).

I ran on Monday, if you want to call it running. I ran 1.5 miles and my legs just felt like they had lead in them. I swam and lifted yesterday which all went well. Had a slight case of insomnia last night so my run will have to wait until this evening. I am scheduled to run a 3-4 mile tempo run. Hopefully now that I've put it in writing(typing) I will do it. Well I have to do it, I have to run 4 miles tonight after work. There I said it now I will do it! :)

Well, I'm off to a fun and exciting day of sun and fun and small sreaming children.

Spring Break + Lifeguarding Mon-Fri = Hell Week!

My active recovery week couldn't have had better timing. I will certainly need some recovery time this week between my tri training and the fact that it is spring break, which promises to make life a work hectic this week.

I went for a 5 mile run yesterday and could barely keep up my desired pace and again this morning...I take that as a sign that I might need a little rest so I cut my run a bit short this morning. It stinks becuase I hate taking breaks, but when that happens it's like "here's your sign". So I will cut back in all aspects of training this week for a little r&r and then get back at it hard next week.

The end of May is approaching quickly, I've got to be sure that I am ready for the Madeira Beach Triathlon!

Speed work success!

So today I did a ladder work out for my speed work and was hoping that I would be able to keep up with my goal pace which was an 8 min. goal pace.

Speed work recap:

Goal time vs. Actual time

400 meters 2 min/1:42 min
600 meters 3 min/2:47 min
800 meters 4 min/3:49 min
600 meters 3 min/3:02 min
400 meters 2 min/2:00 min

Woo Hoo! I have a 5K coming up April 10th and hope to set a new PR! :)

Today was a good day, I have a new boss at work and think he is the bomb digity. As a long time employee of the Y, it's nice to finally have a boss again that is trying to help me move ahead in my career and sees my potential and values my experience. I have 9 years experience as a lifeguard and some of those years have been very challenging for me because some of my supervisors just haven't gave a damn. So, YAY for new bosses that are awesome!

Reason #2 for my good day was for my workout! I had a nice long interval workout on the indoor trainer bike. It's just too freakin' windy out to ride and the pollen is out of control. I would die! After my intense intervals I lifted, my least fav thing to do, but felt good that I got it in!

Tomorrow I have a speed workout...I'm excited about it for 2 reasons

1. I haven't done a speed workout in 2 weeks because I was sick.
2. I get to play with my Garmin watch, which I am still figuring out all the intricacies of this technological masterpiece!

No case of the Monday's here!

"Oh hello Monday, how are you today? Oh really, you didn't want me to get any sleep last night? Cool, thanks a lot!"

So last nights sleep sucked, guess I was a little more bothered by this situation the I thought I was. More for letting him back in the door then him leaving again. However, today I worked my butt off during my swim and my run. I ran until I couldn't run anymore! What a great feeling!

My swim today was pretty bad @$$! I did a ladder and then finished up with 14 X 50's and completed them all in 45 seconds or less. This made me very happy, however, I think I need to put a little more emphasis on drills. I hate drills but some of them are really helpful...others are just dumb to me. (Especially some of the weird drills I see people do when I'm lifeguarding) So a few drills to warm up from now on it is!

After my swim I did 3 x 1 mile repeats (actually it was 2 x 1 miles and 1 x .75 mile). My legs just gave out on me! It felt good...I like exercise therapy, it makes me sleep like a log at night!

Tonight I'm feeling like a little Twilight...I've bought and watched New Moon a couple times (by couple I mean 5ish) :) What can I say? I am a Twilight Saga geek, I read the book series in 2 weeks about a year ago. I'm actually working of reading Eclipse again because the movie comes out June 30th!

Well one day after the departure of sissy boy out of my life I am feeling good! Refreshed even, like I need a little change in my life. Could a trip to Pittsburgh be in my near future? Quite possibly!

Boys are dumb, throw rocks at them!

Oh boy oh boy oh boy...so in my first post I made mention of a manfriend who was trying to win his way back into my heart by coming to a race and waking up at 4am. I'm not quite sure why I let him back into my life in the first place, but I did. I wanted to give him another chance, we had so much history with each other and I couldn't just let go of that.

Turns out I should have let go of that. Today he goes and does that same thing that he has always done...when things get a little stressful in his life he runs away. I'll give you one guess what happened??? Yep, he ran away like the little sissy he is.

I couldn't help but laugh at this though as this is not the first time it has happened. In a way, I am glad this has happened and that I have the strength to walk away without putting up a fight for him. I have realized that he just isn't worth my time or tears. I deserve a real man and someone that I have soemthing in common with. Maybe a nice lean runner type. :)

At this point, I am happy with my life...as happy and one who is unemployed can be.

Like Jay-Z says..."it's on to the next one"